Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Psalm 139
There's nothing in me, My Lord
that doesn't open to your eyes
You know me when I sit
You note when I arise
in the darkest closet of my thought
there is an open window of sunshine for You
You walk with me
lie down with me
at every move await me
at every pause
You know the words
my tongue will print in air
if I say yes
You have already nodded
no--and You have shaken Your head
in any doubts I lose my way
I find Your hand
on me
Such knowledge so high
I can never reach with a mind
or hold any longer than a breath
to get away from you
I could let my imagination fly
but You would hold it in Your sky
or I could sleep with the dead in the ground
but Your fire from the depths
would awaken me
I could fly on gold ray of sun
from dawn in east
west to stars of night
and Your hand
would point the way
and Your right hand hold me steady
however close I pull the night around me
even at midnight
day strips me naked
in You tender sight
black and white
are one--all light
You who put me together
piece by piece in the womb
from light
that work shines
through the form of my skeleton
on my song of words
You watched as my back steadied
the still-soft fuselage of ribs
in primitive studio deep within
You saw me as putty
a life unfashioned
a plane at the bottom of the sea
and the great book of its life
this embryo will write
in a body You have sculpted
My Lord--Your thoughts
high and precious
beyond logic like stars
or like grains of sand I try to count
I fall asleep and awake
on the beach of Your making
My Lord--stop the breath
of men who live by blood
alone and lie to Your face
who think they can hide
behind the same petty smile
they use to smear Your name
My Lord--You hear me hate
back Your haters
with total energy
concentrated
in one body
that is yours and mine
My Lord--look at me
to see my heart
test me--to find my mind
if any bitterness lives here
lead me out
into the selfless open.
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As we prepare to leave for the airport in less than 48 hours, the enormity of what is about to happen in our lives overwhelms me. The path that God has prepared for us--has walked before us--may not be easy, may be uncomfortable, may be frustrating...but it will be GLORIOUS to watch His hand and to follow His Way.
We are trusting Him to do the work. We are asking Him to make it as short a process as possible. We are asking Him to cause there to be NO ISSUE with adopting Misha. We are praying that He will deliver both boys (Matthew and Misha) into our arms with no difficulty. We are asking Him to waive the 10 day waiting period and to cause all the paperwork to work together seamlessly without gaps. He is able. He is sovereign. We depend on Him and cry out to Him to move.
Thank you all for your support and your prayers. We've been too busy to blog these last few days, but as I have time to sit and put our thoughts and scriptures down, I'll post them over the next several weeks. We'll keep you as posted as possible (as internet access allows). We'll share as many pictures and videos as possible.
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February 11, 2009 at 5:49 PM
Hope all goes well! Safe travels!
February 11, 2009 at 7:18 PM
Can't wait to see them in your arms!
If you need anything e-mail me or call me (you have my #'s?) and I will skype you back asap. Many hugs and travel mercies!!
February 12, 2009 at 1:56 AM
I love Ps 139 and this was such a beautiful rendition of it. I wish we could meet up with you guys there but I am just happy you are nearly on your way. May God direct your paths.
Joy
February 12, 2009 at 11:22 AM
How exciting! I can't wait to see pictures with your boys added to the family.
Kayla